"I can't imagine working a 9-5 job for the rest of my life!"
As the years went on after finishing college, I became stressed out! Like many of us that graduate college, the burden of planning every single detail of life crushes us, we need a 401K, to be married, have at least 1 kid, be settled into our perfect career, and this and that and this..... adulting right? NOPE!
After working full time at the lowest paying job position in my career field (direct care staff in a residential facility) I kept having thoughts like "I got a degree in psychology to clean bathrooms? Cook for kids? I don't event cook for myself that often! I'm breaking up fights with kids? I'm playing taxi for these kids? I KNOW THIS CAN'T BE IT! GOD! JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO IN LIFE SO THAT I CAN DO IT!"
Lol, how many of us have gotten to the point of "this can't be it!" ?
Don't worry. That's normal. That's the process of becoming more self aware in our purpose & career.
So, after praying "God, just tell me what you want me to do in life so that I can do it" I started having thoughts & desires to run my own business. I was offered every single position at my last job. Thoughts started to come like "if they offered me every position and they trust me to run their organization, maybe I can run my own?" or "I can be my own boss". God started putting the desires into my heart for what my true purpose was. I then started to become so frustrated at my job. I was angry with my management, with the kids, with coworkers and then I started becoming angry at myself & God. I was confused at why I was still there.
Then BOOM! God gave me a dream and told me to start my own business!! I wasn't sure if that was God speaking or if the frustration from my last job was playing out in my dream lol. 4 days later after that dream, I was in the car with my dad on our way to church & I told him "I think God wants me to start a business. But, I have no idea what to do!"
We went to church and a pastor that I didn't even know, called me to the front of the church! He said "can I pray for you?"
I said "sure."
Him: *pause for too long* "Um....did God tell you to start a business? You have a passion for working with youth right? You're not sure what to do? God will SHOW you what to do!....."
This man that I did not even know, confirmed everything that was in my dream. He told me about funding, the name, my past experience with youth, being in grad school, etc!
Right after that, God told me the month and date to quit my job. Now that's scary right? QUIT MY JOB! WHAT? Lol. In order to follow purpose, we have to get rid of our way, our routine, and.....our job sometimes. Haha.
So although I was scared to death, I knew that if God said it, provision would come! Like my dad said "If its God's will, its God's bill". PERIOD! I also knew/know that in life, we will experience fear when something is too big for us to do alone! If God has given you something to do in life (which He will!) it WILL BE BIGGER THAN YOU!
DO IT AFRAID anyways! Seek His peace and boldness! He said "be strong and courageous, do not be afraid" because He knew that we would be afraid lol.
It has been 1 full year since I quit my job and stepped into purpose!
Glory to God!
What does stepping into purpose look like? Come back for my next blog to find out (:
To my sister (or brother) reading this, do not be afraid! You were created for such a time as THIS! Live on purpose! Own your space. Own your calling & your purpose! Go and be impactful! The world is waiting for YOU to show up!
Verses of encouragement: Deuteronomy 31:6, Joshua 1:9, Psalm 37:4, Proverbs 3:5-6
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