3 yEARS LATER...WHAT AM I DOING? I'm lost....

Hey Kings & Queens, 

Long time no blog right? I know. I'm back! I forgot how therapeutic writing is for me! I missed blogging, and God put it on my heart to write today so I refused to go to sleep before publishing this (: 

It has been 3 years since I quit my job and 2 years since I launched my nonprofit Youth With A Purpose and other things (my online clothing store, nonprofit consulting, speaking engagements, writing books, YouTube, etc.) Today I went to a meeting at Santa Monica beach with other amazing CEO's, huge funders and investors, and community leaders! It was beautiful! Definitely inspiring! But, guess what? 

In the middle of the key note speaker answering questions, 4 thoughts ran across my mind quickly. Here are the thoughts:

1. "Wow you're out of date on all of your statistics. These people are so up to date on everything. You need to read more, learn more, research more...        
2. You raised a ton of money for your nonprofit in year 1-2, but what about now? The money is going to run out...
3. Why aren't you talking to people? You should talk to everyone! You're not doing enough.
4. Talking to people and networking isn't important! Everyone is going to think you're too young. They won't care or respect what you have to say...

All of those negative and self limiting thoughts led me to feel like I was completely lost, didn't know what I was doing and needed to take a break from my nonprofit. *sigh*

Yep, I said it! 3 years into this leap of faith journey and solely trusting God & I was finally at the point where I thought "maybe I should just work for someone else for a second, realize I hate working for other people, and miss running my own nonprofit full time and come back to it!"  (weird right?)

Of course today wasn't the only day where I LET self limiting thoughts live rent free in my mind! That's why it was building up. Today wasn't the first day, but it was the first day that
I shifted my thoughts BACK TO GOD.

God told me "Girl don't follow that voice! Those thoughts are leading you to the dark. I AM THE LIGHT! You are NEVER LOST! I have allllll of the plans, insight, funding, rest and E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G else you need!" The tiktok song started playing in my head "Hold Up! Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute! Tik Tok" (google it)

I remembered that we think thoughts, God can give us thoughts, but the enemy can also put thoughts in our minds! God says to take every thought captive (to obey Christ) and cast down thoughts and imaginations (that exalted itself against the knowledge of God).

​God already told me He would always provide for me, the money will NEVER run out, people will alway listen to me because HE has given me favor with man, there's nothing that I cannot learn and He knows that I am not perfect and grace is sufficient for me! 

This literally cancels out every thought that I listed above!

Isn't it so beautiful how we can renew our minds daily?! We don't have to KEEP the same faulty thinking that is not working for us anymore. We can change, redirect and cast thoughts down! 

This is a clear example of how I renewed my mind. 
I rejected those thoughts, came in agreement with God's truth about me, and was instantly renewed, strengthened, inspired, motivated, empowered and hopeful!

I hope this blog is also inspiring and motivating to you! God loves you way too much to even let your own thoughts bully HIS child (meaning you!) 
You are a child of the most High God! 
You are royalty!
You are a joint heir with Christ!
Never let the enemy bully you and bombard you with LIES! 
Renew your mind daily!

 
So no, I'm not lost. Neither are you.
WE ARE RIGHT WHERE WE NEED TO BE.


With Love,
Shameka (: 

Verses of encouragement: Hebrews 13:5,  2 Corinthians 10:5, Romans 8:17.