Hey Kings & Queens,
As most of you know, I am the Founder & Director of Youth With A Purpose and our very first program is called the Mommy Mentor network. We help young moms with mentorship, postpartum support, maternity photoshoots, etc.
Although I have not given birth myself YET, I have been around plenty of women that have.
When it is time to deliver the baby, rarely does the baby come out in one push. After about the second or third push, the mom is sweating, tired, screaming and ready to give up! Just when she feels like she can't push anymore, she wants to throw in the towel and kill the father, the doctor says "okay sweetheart, just ONE MORE PUSH and you can meet your little angel."
With the encouragement from the family, baby's father and the doctor, the mom pushes with all of her strength and out comes the baby! A bundle of joy. A blessing to the world.
Although the mom was tired, weak and ready to give up, she pushed just one more time in order to meet the biggest blessing of her life.
For the last 9-12 months, I have felt as if I was in a season of pregnancy (not physically obviously).
Like, the vision of my life was deepening, growing and developing. That at the end of the 9-12 months, my life will be birthed to the next level.
When you are in-tuned with God, you can often times feel a change in seasons. You can sense that something is coming.
I am at the point in my life and career that either I give up or like the mom in labor, I give all of my energy and strength to pushing just ONE MORE TIME.
I have been a solo entrepreneur since 2018. I created Radiant Edge in 2018, my nonprofit Youth With A Purpose in 2020 and Purpose Coaching/ Consulting in 2022.
I am tired.
Tired of creating content.
Tired of relying on faith to pay the bills.
Tired of taking risks.
Tired of building websites and promo things.
Tired of creating my own income.
Tired of thinking for everyone.
Tired of being stressed.
Tired of constantly learning & developing skills to keep all of the businesses going.
Just tired... (please pray for ya girl! & if you feel the same way, reach out to me so that I can pray for you also. Don't stop reading, it gets better towards the end).
I'm not going to lie, living by faith can be extremely difficult. Especially when we start doing things in our own strength and we stop being connected to the vine (John 15).
I know other people that have also quit their jobs to pursue purpose like me and ultimately ended up with a new job within 6 months.
I am at a cross roads seriously.
Either I use my degree and work in the social work field and I give up/take a break from entrepreneurship
I PUSH JUST ONE MORE TIME to the next level (spiritually AND financially).
It honestly feels like a dark cloud and a heavy weight is on me. When I pray/worship, of course it leaves. But for the rest of the day, it's there. The heaviness only wants me to chill, watch TV, eat, scroll on social media, and sleep (extremely fatigued). Is this what you call spiritual warfare & opposition?
Like maybe I need to actively fight in the spirit against whatever spirit that is trying to stop me from going to the next level?
God reminded me today that I didn't choose entrepreneurship, He gave it to me as a gift. He put it inside of me as purpose.
Wouldn't it be strange for me to walk away from purpose just because I'm tired?
Maybe I'm not tired. Maybe there is a spiritual battle happening that is trying to prevent me from going to my next level in life? (If you study spiritual warfare, then you know).
As a commitment to:
My future kids
My future husband
Everyone reading this blog
My mentees & anyone that looks up to me
The people I help & the world in general
I choose the latter.
I will push just one more time!
One lady by the name of Antonette prophesied at church and said
"Shameka you are reaching your celebration season! You will be crying tears of joy!" Writing this blog, I am crying tears of weariness.
Although I am tired, God reminded me that all of the things that I pray for (& put on my vision boards) come to pass.
God is with me and for me.
"Though it tarry....wait for it"- Habbakuk 2:3
Sometimes I feel forgotten by God. I am trying my very best to live according to God's will and although some people think that being Christian means life will be easy, it is the exact opposite.
I could be married, pregnant and rich already if I lived according to the world. I would also probably be miserable, wanting a divorce and have no peace.
God is faithful and will never fail His children. I believe that God is using me as an example to the world of what it means to live by faith and purpose.
Although it doesn't feel good sometimes to walk by faith and to wait on God when God's timing is different than our own, when we wait on God, He will renew our strength. We will not faint. We will not stay weary/tired. (Isaiah 40:31)
In this season, I will press into God more and commit to the final push!
I will cast down those thoughts that speak against pushing to the next level (2 corn 10:15).
I will work hard even when I feel like netflixin and chillin.
I will remain consistent until I give birth (aka go to the next level.)
Let's push just one more time!
If you are in a season of transition also, please don't give up!
There is greatness on the other side.
Get some friends to pray with/for you (& keep you accountable) and keep on going! I stand with you in the transition.
Love You all,
“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint” (Isa. 40:31).
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