"you're doing yourself a DISSERVICE" said god

Hey Kings & Queens, 

After 3 events back to back in 2 days, I felt like I needed a week to just laaayyyy down! So I did just that! I'm all for sleeping and taking breaks when needed. I also stopped working out, started eating donuts everyday and....also stopped my morning devotionals with God. 

I found myself praying tonight before my youth & young adult bible study and I realized that so many people around me are sick, there's so much drama happening, and my body feels HORRIBLE! I apologized to God saying "Lord forgive me! I should be praying for people! I need to pray over the environment and against these spirits and principalities that are causing so much drama! My body feels terrible! Why did I stop working out?" on & on!
God said
" you're doing YOURSELF a disservice" 

I thought, "wait, what?" How am I doing myself a disservice? Isn't God the one that becomes angry when we do something wrong? Or when we're off track? I was so confused. I literally said out loud "wait, what? Lord what are you talking about?"

And, like a good Father, He answered. He told me "yes, doing YOURSELF A DISSERVICE. You are the one that wants to be used by me, you want to help people, you want your body to be in shape, you want to prophesy and rule over principalities. The way you're living is doing a disservice to yourself. I will use you if you want to be used." 

WOAH! Reality check! Sometimes I think I'm disappointing God but in actuality I'm just feeding the flesh and making it more and more difficult to follow His spirit. 

If we feed the flesh more, we'll become fleshly/worldly.
If we live by the Spirit we'll become more spiritual and rooted in Christ. 

If you are struggling with discipline, self control, consistency, etc. I pray that today you will be led by the Spirit and not the flesh. That you will listen to the still small voice in your mind that says "go this way. Do this, not that". The more we practice listening to the Holy Spirit, the more we'll live free and disciplined lives! 

Blessings to you kings & queens!
With Love,

Shameka

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